Sad Monday

Poor #dcyw is down with some infection. ):

Me hopes he doesn't need to be hospitalised? Omgwtfbbq man. So poor thing please?

Wondering if its anything we did or ??? His appetite went down since Saturday... so... maybe he was already ill on Friday?

Was it some crazy germs we brought back from overseas?!?! But he was so good thereee )): My hearttt. Chiangchiang leh.

But I guess I'm also sad because of this travelling thingie. ): I have no trip to look forward to and I'm so so so restless. Sighhhh.

Rationally, I think I know why XR is so uninterested in travelling. But I feel like we can't just put our lives on hold? I really hope MIL reacts well to treatments and can live longlong. So lets say... these treatments go on for 5 years... does that mean the next 5 years we cannot travel as a family???

And it's not like I wanna go away for months! Or even half a month. ): I think I can be content with a 5 day trip.

Just some time for us to spend together as a family. Like proper full time. And not when he goes for work and I can't run too far away because #baby and #china don't go together all that well?

I don't feel like we're getting to connect properly.

And much as I'm thankful for all the help from family members... I really feel like I see them too much. /:

I know that life happens and things don't always go as planned. But NZ being kicked outta the question depressed me. ):

And I'm also hoping for #2 soon. But wonky periods and not enuff time to hangs with XR is making that seem tough. But also... if #2 does come soon (bopeebopeee a little piggy pls) ... I CANNOT TRAVEL AGAIN. OH MY TIAN.

And 1 kid XR alr don't wanna take plane... 2 kids how? T_T I'm so depressed.