studying posts... ep 4
a bunch of random notes to unnamed (yes they will remain unnamed so don't even BOTHER asking me... but if you're wondering why im typing this anyhow, i have no clue myself... trying to keep the gender not obvious too btw. ok except for note 1. haha.) recipients ... (who probably will not realise that its meant for them anyway so...)
me thinks the notes are generally weird... oops.
1: i actually wish there's someone out there just like you (not exactly like, i mean you could look better, though im not saying theres anything wrong with how you look now haha... but i mean character) who's not you. i believe that good friends can't turn boyfriends and i can't imagine that happening anyway goosebumps. but yes. i quite sure someone with your character is quite ... wow. for me. at least. i think. im contemplating whether to use the word perfect, but i guess i wun stretch it that far. HMM. but im still very glad that you are around (:
2: i think i kinda miss talking to you. ok more like msning. but im trying to quit msn (and getting quite successful at it) and i think we're running out of things to say to each other anyway. which is depressing for me. oh well. i do miss having that chat window open perpetually when i was online last time... boo. maybe its me who can't sustain the conversations anymore. but... sometimes i really don't know what to say. |:
3: i don't think you visit my blog anymore now that you're so busy with your other half. but i am glad for you. and how you try (yet fail) to make time for me. smsing frequently to check in is still something i really appreciate. although its not the crazy 24-7 smsing frequency like it was for a few years... (even with your previous other half) but im still glad that you're still a large part of my life. so thank you. (:
4: i think we're getting super distant from one another and thats kinda sad. cause you used to be someone i can just randomly contact to accompany me when im alone. not that you are always free, but at least i would still try. the past few times i've actually met you was weird, i think. didn't really talk about much. it feels like we're friends of a few months rather than a few years. and i don't think i can do anything about this but oh well. ):
5: im quite upset by your gambling issues. but. i think things will work out. as with all the other horrible things that has happened. i wish you would stop arguing with your other half about this. because it gets me crazy because i cant do a single thing about it. and i feel so helpless when you tell me about it because i feel like sticking my fingers into your face and telling you to wake up. i believe my positivity in this will help. i cant wait for the smiles again. |:
6: im so sorry that i was so sore about the whole thing. im not sure if you knew. but i suspect you might have felt it at some time. i hope the front i put up was believable enough that you will not even think that this is you. but i am glad the feelings of frustration and irritation has totally dissolved into nothing. and that i am glad things are how it is now. (:
i have quite a few notes in my head... but. i think this outburst is enough. i will probably sleep in fear of any note but no.3 being deciphered by who they are meant for. but. yep. irrational right. -_-
me thinks the notes are generally weird... oops.
1: i actually wish there's someone out there just like you (not exactly like, i mean you could look better, though im not saying theres anything wrong with how you look now haha... but i mean character) who's not you. i believe that good friends can't turn boyfriends and i can't imagine that happening anyway goosebumps. but yes. i quite sure someone with your character is quite ... wow. for me. at least. i think. im contemplating whether to use the word perfect, but i guess i wun stretch it that far. HMM. but im still very glad that you are around (:
2: i think i kinda miss talking to you. ok more like msning. but im trying to quit msn (and getting quite successful at it) and i think we're running out of things to say to each other anyway. which is depressing for me. oh well. i do miss having that chat window open perpetually when i was online last time... boo. maybe its me who can't sustain the conversations anymore. but... sometimes i really don't know what to say. |:
3: i don't think you visit my blog anymore now that you're so busy with your other half. but i am glad for you. and how you try (yet fail) to make time for me. smsing frequently to check in is still something i really appreciate. although its not the crazy 24-7 smsing frequency like it was for a few years... (even with your previous other half) but im still glad that you're still a large part of my life. so thank you. (:
4: i think we're getting super distant from one another and thats kinda sad. cause you used to be someone i can just randomly contact to accompany me when im alone. not that you are always free, but at least i would still try. the past few times i've actually met you was weird, i think. didn't really talk about much. it feels like we're friends of a few months rather than a few years. and i don't think i can do anything about this but oh well. ):
5: im quite upset by your gambling issues. but. i think things will work out. as with all the other horrible things that has happened. i wish you would stop arguing with your other half about this. because it gets me crazy because i cant do a single thing about it. and i feel so helpless when you tell me about it because i feel like sticking my fingers into your face and telling you to wake up. i believe my positivity in this will help. i cant wait for the smiles again. |:
6: im so sorry that i was so sore about the whole thing. im not sure if you knew. but i suspect you might have felt it at some time. i hope the front i put up was believable enough that you will not even think that this is you. but i am glad the feelings of frustration and irritation has totally dissolved into nothing. and that i am glad things are how it is now. (:
i have quite a few notes in my head... but. i think this outburst is enough. i will probably sleep in fear of any note but no.3 being deciphered by who they are meant for. but. yep. irrational right. -_-