pardon this post.

i hate emotional/whiny entries. :(
but i have to indulge in one. SIGH.

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you make me feel so old
when i know im not THAT old

i act like a kid around SO MANY people
but in front of you, i age some 30 years

im studying accounting
you have problems managing your almost non-existent finances

rawr.
i know im better off than some people
at least you dont take all my income from me
and i can do so many more things
the freedom
the trust
and sometimes, the support

yet i worry about the future
i worry about how my meager future salary can support your every want
your random indulgences

how did you live so many years in this way
why does everyone succumb to your ridiculous temper
your obstinate nature
your oh-so-frequent inconsiderate actions

from you i learnt so much
i know you mean well
i know you're not evil

but
i know im not perfect
do you?

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world oh world, please don't crash down on me
i don't think my optimism can last.

i hope for some good news tomorrow.

and it wouldn't hurt if the little things goes my way as well.

good night world.
please be kind to me.