OH SHIT.
i just read eunice's blog and guess wad i saw...
"Honestly, where did all the time go? I feel like a year has passed and I have nothing to show for it >_<."
nods head fervently!!!!
i dun feel like i learnt anything much.
life skills, academic, special skills, anything-wise.
nothing much at all!!!!
OMG. what am i doing with my life...
and not like this 1 yr was smooth sailing.
not at all.
absolutely turbulent. within my family at least. WHINE.
this is like really crazy and i keep thinking about life and family and money and death and all those serious things again and again.
MADNESS.
ok...
do i really wanna start typing down the things running through my head now?
ahh. i do.
(shifted them way down. =) so you dont have to read it... if u dont want to... heh.)
WHY OH WHY...
i really need to reorient my life.
i really don't know what i want.
i am such a confused character.
short term goals:
.get through a week without quarreling with dad
.spend a day ALONE doing something i really wanna do (i.e. sit in a random corner, park, breakwater, and read a book with kahlua-milk at my side)
.not check my phone for sms every 5 mins
.stop being so hurried all the time (i.e. stop chasing for a bloody bus)
.not get on facebook or friendster when i am online (okok, just once.)
[well, they're supposed to be short term and achievable ok!]
wish me luck! im off to bintan for 3 days anw.. HAHA. hopefully i can think out something! =D
meet these darlings anyway. "best friend"'s bunnies. i swear i just love bunnies. =D
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ctrl+x ctrl+v here! =D
shit la. tuedays with morrie. ><
life in general
eeks. u know i have like NO IDEA what i wanna do in life. what i wanna achieve..
WHY THE HECK IM STUDYING AND GETTING DAMN STRESSED BY BIDDING. (ok, short term random pissed off-ness. haha!)
and what am i doing gg for so many treks and wasting a rather a lot of time when i shd be catching up with family and frens and stuff! arghs! or at least spending more time at home...
actually.. i did conclude that wad i want now is just to enjoy life.. make use of the opportunities i have now to do all these impulsive things. BUT ARGHS... i really want meh!!
shd i re-prioritize my life
family
i feel damn bad. I DUNNOE WHY.
i just dun feel that close to my parents. and i dunno. dunno how to talk to help to do things for to react to them.
i wanna do SOO much. i wanna bring them everywhere. but BAH. like no chance and erm.. issues. nods.
ARGHS. i should stay home more. and help them buy breakfast. and give them half my pay. and clean the house and wash the dishes everyday and not only do it at random spur of the moments times.
yes i know im like damn shuang to have so much freedom, trust and "tender-loving-care" given to me. yes i appreciate it a whole damn lot...
BUT HOW THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO SHOW IT. (and this brings me back to the point of death. wad if i die and i still dun get to show it!!!)
(this is soo random!)and ya. i want my 4 kids! =D aldoh they dont seem to be anywhere near coming to me yet. HMM. damn strong maternal instincts. SHIT.
money
i know i can never have enough of it.
i hate trying to plot my finances.
i abit tong ku i decided to go for so many trips when i should be saving money.
why am i shopping like i have DAMN ALOT OF MONEY when i dont.
why am i picky over tutess.
haix.
钱不是万能， 但没钱是万万不能。
friends
yesyes. i keep having discussions about friends these few days.
i am thankful for u people. REALLY.
i am going to stop making so many random acquaintances that i prolly wun keep, wun share stuff with.
i will spare time for you all. if i dun, bash me on the head please. =D
and yes, i would love to mention names. =) aldoh u might not even see it.
SEXC*, HM, SK, JN, JW, WH, GS, MANDA, JUST, YING, DUAN, JOU, KH, JL, PRIS.
u all keep me sane. NODS. =D
death
ok. why do i think about death? DAMN MORBID RIGHT.
but ya...
so many ppl erm.. die. and i think we're at that age when our family members CHOYCHOYTOUCHWOOD pass away
and the recent sailing incident. LIKE OMG.
our lives are damn bloody fragile. =(((
wad if i die tmr.
and ya. i really cant bring myself to tell my parents "i love you". >< dammit.
wad if i regret it... i think its an asian thing. ARGHS.
bahh. typing it out is sooo much easier.
ok. if i do die in the near future. sighs. please let me not regret anything...
love
surprisingly, there isnt much. HAHA. aldoh i keep moaning abt this to everyone (everyone who cared to moan back to me, of course) i really do think that wad will come will come. HAHA. HAIYA. at most go sperm bank lorrr! =D
but i want my aforementioned 4 kids.
"Honestly, where did all the time go? I feel like a year has passed and I have nothing to show for it >_<."
nods head fervently!!!!
i dun feel like i learnt anything much.
life skills, academic, special skills, anything-wise.
nothing much at all!!!!
OMG. what am i doing with my life...
and not like this 1 yr was smooth sailing.
not at all.
absolutely turbulent. within my family at least. WHINE.
this is like really crazy and i keep thinking about life and family and money and death and all those serious things again and again.
MADNESS.
ok...
do i really wanna start typing down the things running through my head now?
ahh. i do.
(shifted them way down. =) so you dont have to read it... if u dont want to... heh.)
WHY OH WHY...
i really need to reorient my life.
i really don't know what i want.
i am such a confused character.
short term goals:
.get through a week without quarreling with dad
.spend a day ALONE doing something i really wanna do (i.e. sit in a random corner, park, breakwater, and read a book with kahlua-milk at my side)
.not check my phone for sms every 5 mins
.stop being so hurried all the time (i.e. stop chasing for a bloody bus)
.not get on facebook or friendster when i am online (okok, just once.)
[well, they're supposed to be short term and achievable ok!]
wish me luck! im off to bintan for 3 days anw.. HAHA. hopefully i can think out something! =D
meet these darlings anyway. "best friend"'s bunnies. i swear i just love bunnies. =D
------------
ctrl+x ctrl+v here! =D
shit la. tuedays with morrie. ><
life in general
eeks. u know i have like NO IDEA what i wanna do in life. what i wanna achieve..
WHY THE HECK IM STUDYING AND GETTING DAMN STRESSED BY BIDDING. (ok, short term random pissed off-ness. haha!)
and what am i doing gg for so many treks and wasting a rather a lot of time when i shd be catching up with family and frens and stuff! arghs! or at least spending more time at home...
actually.. i did conclude that wad i want now is just to enjoy life.. make use of the opportunities i have now to do all these impulsive things. BUT ARGHS... i really want meh!!
shd i re-prioritize my life
family
i feel damn bad. I DUNNOE WHY.
i just dun feel that close to my parents. and i dunno. dunno how to talk to help to do things for to react to them.
i wanna do SOO much. i wanna bring them everywhere. but BAH. like no chance and erm.. issues. nods.
ARGHS. i should stay home more. and help them buy breakfast. and give them half my pay. and clean the house and wash the dishes everyday and not only do it at random spur of the moments times.
yes i know im like damn shuang to have so much freedom, trust and "tender-loving-care" given to me. yes i appreciate it a whole damn lot...
BUT HOW THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO SHOW IT. (and this brings me back to the point of death. wad if i die and i still dun get to show it!!!)
(this is soo random!)and ya. i want my 4 kids! =D aldoh they dont seem to be anywhere near coming to me yet. HMM. damn strong maternal instincts. SHIT.
money
i know i can never have enough of it.
i hate trying to plot my finances.
i abit tong ku i decided to go for so many trips when i should be saving money.
why am i shopping like i have DAMN ALOT OF MONEY when i dont.
why am i picky over tutess.
haix.
钱不是万能， 但没钱是万万不能。
friends
yesyes. i keep having discussions about friends these few days.
i am thankful for u people. REALLY.
i am going to stop making so many random acquaintances that i prolly wun keep, wun share stuff with.
i will spare time for you all. if i dun, bash me on the head please. =D
and yes, i would love to mention names. =) aldoh u might not even see it.
SEXC*, HM, SK, JN, JW, WH, GS, MANDA, JUST, YING, DUAN, JOU, KH, JL, PRIS.
u all keep me sane. NODS. =D
death
ok. why do i think about death? DAMN MORBID RIGHT.
but ya...
so many ppl erm.. die. and i think we're at that age when our family members CHOYCHOYTOUCHWOOD pass away
and the recent sailing incident. LIKE OMG.
our lives are damn bloody fragile. =(((
wad if i die tmr.
and ya. i really cant bring myself to tell my parents "i love you". >< dammit.
wad if i regret it... i think its an asian thing. ARGHS.
bahh. typing it out is sooo much easier.
ok. if i do die in the near future. sighs. please let me not regret anything...
love
surprisingly, there isnt much. HAHA. aldoh i keep moaning abt this to everyone (everyone who cared to moan back to me, of course) i really do think that wad will come will come. HAHA. HAIYA. at most go sperm bank lorrr! =D
but i want my aforementioned 4 kids.