boom

since im alr in such a disgusting mood and i prolly cant function till i finish exploding and have an outlet for my emotions...
HERE GOES.

[cant believe i held it i the whole of the comms mtg]

i dont even like to blog emotionally! ARGHS. but im really left with no choice. no other avenue to explode unless i attach some poor innocent soul who did nothing to really piss me off.

obviously i have other pent up frustrations. and it so doesnt help that i have gazillion deadlines coming up and a serious lack of rest. =( i even warned my parents of my short temper and to leave me alone. so YOU shd just seriously ignore me when u see my black and not-lame face.

anw. start of bitch/ rent/ explosion. wadeva.

lets just say ive been looking forward to a short day night of rest. and you guys have been all ready and ready to deny me of that. "prepare for presentation", an alternative you gave me. maybe u really wished to show concern. but i guess it doesnt help when i immediately found out about your other plans, without me. right, im so sure ill be fine when all of you, except me of course, is out together. why? just because i stay in the east? thanks alot.
[damn, i do sound bitter dont i]

i know we've been drifting.
ill excuse it for school, and distance, and money, and work, and whatever you can come up with. its part and parcel of life isnt it. maybe im not drifting with my newer frens because they are in the same sch as me now. maybe its why i still can try to go my frens hall [even doh its in the west] just to see them as they are in singapore.
hasnt it been so for the past few years? even in jc?
[ok. im sad. i just thought of another grp of ppl whom i haven met in a long time. ))=
SK HM: can we pls meet up!]
lazy. tired. far. crowded. broke.
i dont know. whatever it is. i dont rmb any instances of you coming to the east. how many times have i been to the west. westmall, railmall, bukit timah plaza, beauty world, island creamery. yes i do know where they are unlike other easties. do i enjoy it? the travelling? NO WAY. the companionship is what makes it worth my while to make the effort to meet you guys. 2 hrs. to and fro. so what. i know its more convenient for you guys.. so i wun make you come to my area. but TOWN? i dont see why not. i guess you just dont see it that way.

i know you guys do care. the amusing presents. the honeydew cake. the donuts. however belated, random. i do appreciate it.

AH. fuck. im done with grumbling. i still look forward to tomorrow. oh wait. more like later since its past 12 and i just got back frm meeting.

back to work. i shd be able to concentrate now.