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i nv had such a strong urge to blog for sucha long time. mabbe cuz i nv realli felt so.. rar. for quite some time?
haha. mabbe some upsets. just not like todae la.. sighs:(

my results. haha. wait. im actualli happie abt tt. abit kek. bud im still happi! hey, studying realli helps.
ok lor. shant gloat bud i think its quite ok lar. so im happie. missing a higher grade by abit doesnt matter, cuz its the mark itself tt matters for promos.
im HAPPIE AND CONTENTED. yes. seeing the failures [hey. im not gloating im just commenting] ard me. i KNOW i am happie.

just keked. yes.

rar. tts not the :(((( part lar. no link. erm. sighss. i dun even noe how to start. erm, i think its kinda my own fault la.
rar. i know how tt people in the first 3 mths felt now. its like i hafta re-orientate. and tell myself tt.. im not _____ anymore.
:((( dunnoe la.. sighhs. i feel so confused. i noe im happie tt a load is kinda relieved. somemore i felt i was kinda starting to stretch myself.
this is so totalli unlike when i realli wanted to be _____ wif chailing..
bud its just. just. a change. yeayea, changes are the only constants. rar. rar. rar.
:((((( sighss. ]]]]]]]= dunnoe dunnoe mixed mixed mixed feelings. >< i hate feeling like crap like now. bleahs.
this whole thing is no link. rar.

gee. i know i mite look quite ok on the outside. i noe i quite moodswinging. tts bad. yeah. im sorrie. its my fault.
rar. i just carn show tt sadness lar. im used to acting the idiot and being "happie"...

yeps. tml. still got school. im shure ill be fine after i sleep. i hope. well. i can just. erm.. find somewhere else... tt can make up for the hollow.
like make myself busy. yeayea. still got planning for national day games. i hope i wun be useless dere. >< sobs.
yay. go mug. full time immersion into mugging. at least i mite actualli get an A for promos.
>< find things to do. not like it was sucha big part of my life.

rar. who am i kidding. im self-psychoing.

i feel self-depreciative. i suck. rar. >< can just jump down.